Believing in myself, to achieve the goals ahead...

Why? Im being forced to change...
When a human changed either his lifestyle or mindset, there will be onli be two ways.

one, he or she wana change him or herself willingly...(ez way)

two, by the environment or situation arises around him or her...(hard way)

Im two... why? I ask myself, if i dont change now.. when am i going to change? My parents needs me to support financially... perhaps not tat urgent.. but it's never too early to see it coming in the years to come...

2nd, my wife to be... perhaps to many ppl is too early to say now... @ age of 22, which guy will wana think of marriage? Unless he miss-shot, or his family's financial power is there to support him.. otherwise... no... why i think now? if not now when? 30? 40? no... i give myself a goal.. by this period of time i will acheive it... of cos, when? i cant reveal here... cos tat devil will be reading this... by planning this route, Im giving her a feeling that beside out there, working hard for my career, my heart is still with her... I want to let her know, shes the one. and im working hard and at the same time letting her know, all the hard work is for her waits and patience for tat magical chapter to publish and start to write the new chapter of our fairy tale story...

I have a lot of friends, Their bf or some of my guy friends, focus too much on themselves and without assuring their gal the most important thing, marriage... and many i see ended becos of this...... i just hope the guys out there can let the gal see and feel "it" by their assurance that marriage is something that two of you can acheive since when u two are already together... why always avoid the question? Or why always say "wa still so far away" or "wa i dont wana tie down so fast" or "huh dont know leh"... trust me the gal who loves u, will not wana hear this from your mouth... why not face it and sit down and discuss? unless u both dont decide to get married and thats a different issue.

With the two points i mentioned are enough to force me to change... it's so hard to change myself... but im giving myself time to acheive it and i can do it... i dont wana look back.. my own future is on my own hands... Im telling myself, failure will not come across my mind... why? If Im gona think "oh i cannot" or "what if i cant/fail" Why bother to think that when I already tell myself i cant?

I believe my goals will come true... cos i know failure is only temporary.