Babies/Kids

Dont know got tok abt this b4 not.
But well, just wana tok abt this
I have this habits of gazing at kids.
or babies.
they got this healing effect on me.
Whenever i sad or frustrated or
watever pek chek feeling
I just gaze at them.
See them smile
see them noise
see them cry
see them play
i will just feel better.
i dun kw other ppl will have
the same kind of feeling not
but well, i do..
perhaps thats y i love kids a lot
be it they are naughty or wat.
Maybe if they are naughty.
they are kind of frustrating
Seeing them havoc around the mrt
shopping malls.
etc etc...
But i guess its so much better
to see the teens nowadays roaming
around the corners.. and creating troubles
I dun kw... i just feel the next generation
of teens are getting out of hands
I see young teens gals with age like 12?
kao... heavy make up all this
teens boys, dye hair, peircing everywhere.
is this so..
how shoild i put it...
garang? haha.. army term..
shit army... did i just say army...
well...
i dun kw wat they are thinking..
trying to act macho... but like beng.
trying to act mature and pretty.
but looks like some undecent underage gals
waiting for predator to hops in.

starting earli to teach your child is
very important..
the onli problem is
wat is the right way.
no one knows
Its hard... Im waiting for the day
of me becoming a father myself.
I want to taste the medicine of being
a father myself. Believe it to be
7 years ba. A rough gauge if
everything goes well for me and her.
AH CHOY.
Of cos... go well.. being thru all the shit already
if reali gone... means i reali suay ba.
but well.. having a kid and a family is
a thing i long to have since two years ago. haha.
Too early? Maybe?
I dont care. As long as i have it.
I will devoted my life into the family.
Being a YI JIA ZHI ZU, will
make me a more mature guy ba.

Another thing struck me while i was in the mrt
Will punishment make a person change?
Will chances make a person change?

I believe punishment only make the person
live in fear, and not change the person

I believe chances only make the person
think everything will goes well next time

so wats the solution in making a person repent
and turn a new life?

I DONT KNOW!

U guys go think and tell me ok. haha

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U know... i love writing songs
At times, i got a dream of wanting
to become a song writer.
But being a "dun kw anything"
in this market... i just feel
i write for fun ba.
haha... everytime,
walk along the streets along,
taking trains back from my zhu home..
A lot of free flow of combination
of words just comes into my mind.
Even i tired, i can still think...
Why ar?
Am i gifted? haha... bth...
no la reali.. i dun kw abt others
cos i can come out of words easily.
but...
maybe i think too much...
Face the reality ba.. haha.

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rain non stop... sian...
going back camp 2ml...
think gona sleep soon...
always got this sian feeling
like my freedom and mind gona
being controlled my aliens again
or rather freeze...
cant tink...
React on command..
like a dog.
as always regard as 3g soldiers..
but i dun feel any 3g in us...
perhaps they know tat also..
haha..

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end here after toking kok so long
toking to jeslyn... hope shes fine..
wel... she will cos got this bro of her
AROUND!

Good nite...
Hope tomorrow will be a smooth day...
yeah hope...
sian...