If you think the following contents is disturbing. Dont continue to read. I had warned you. I have stated clearly.

U Know why i hate monday so much?

I dont care whether they see this a not. Cos what i said is all facts about their characters.

I have to face a guy whose is going to ord soon. Having a mentallity to push his responsibility to me. Everything seems transparent to him now. Whatever things he dont want to care anymore. In front, trying to be friendly. I can read people mind. I know what these people are thinking. Get the responsibility off and i dont know who the hell are you. Lets see what happen on monday. Im confident this is going to happen. So i m awaiting all this to happen and all i can do is to keep my calm.

I have to face another lovely partner of mine. A very intelligent guy. So what? Do i give a fuck? He cant take stress... And i have to take his stress becos im his partner in our appointments. If he is gona stress and IF HE IS provoked by anyone, his uncle, may issue a lawyer letter to that person. Even tiny ants matter, he will do it as well. This partner of mine is hyper emotional and worse than any gals during their PMS(Just a quote). If no1 help him in his work. He will think everyone is selfish and dont want to help him. And what the fuck is this? I dont know how to work with him in the 500++ days to come.

I have to report to this another guy whenever impossible. Why whenever impossible? Cos its when i cant siam him then i have to report to him. He is a leader, oh did i say leader? He is another guy who tends to use his mouth before using his brains. Using his pathetic english to reprimand people and show his ranks. He have this wonderful odour that you do not need to know whether he is in the office. you just have to breathe and you will know he is in or not in the office. How to work with a leader who using his mouth before using his brains. His unique working style make people impossible to work with him. Im not the only one who detest him. haha. Even the canteen's aunty and uncle know what kind of person he is. God please save him...

Another so called leader of mine. Pathetic. Its not that i dont want to respect him as a leader. For one thing i know about him, i cannot respect him. why? He divorced with his wife. And now having a so called china mistress. Can tok in the office using the disgusting china slang with her. How to stand when you stay in the same office as him? Like pushing and arrows people to do work. He himself? Always "wa so many things to do." Wayang onli... In fact he did nothing.

And now i have to take over another appointment. Friday confirm cannot go home early. So is this fair to me? I think pride, fairness all this ethics put aside for this 500+++ days. Toking about SAF 7 cores values.

Loyalty to country? haha...
Leadership? I dont see in my superiors. All i see is using ranks to order people.
Disipline? Its all only for Wayang..
Professionalism? I dont see any professionalism in my daily works.
Fighting Spirit? How to have fighting spirit when everyone is thinking about ORD?
Ethics? Even superiors never show us whats that.
Care for soldiers? Yeah, Care for your own ass.

If i continue to stay in that camp. Im not surprised i will get charge for mini minor things. Bo bian. Have to serve country and stay in this camp of mine. Everyday living in fear of losing my weekends and extra duties. For what? a minor allowance of 350 dollars? Can i say im even worse than a bangaldesh worker? toking about welfare? Welfare is given becos Superiors are lazy to care about you.

Wonderful isnt it?

Even during weekends i cant live in peace. A call means you have to go back. Gow to have time, for my family? My ill grandma, my grandpa, my beloved girlfriend. Everything so rush. I get very very sian with all this shit in my camp. I tends to wear this black makeup during weekends. I tends to neglect my gf. I m honest. I dont have the energy. Why i have energy for my ps2? Cos i know im avoiding. Playing games give me space in my brain to siam all this shit.

Sorry dear, i know saturday i shouldnt be like this. Anyway, I know you know. But well, i really hope things in that camp change for the better. But it seems impossible.

For all the people i dui bu qi... I sincerely apologise. I dont wish to be like this. I m not myself in this 500 plus days to come. The real Me is not wif me now...