Feel so lost...
No sense of directions...
No where to go...
You have no controls of what happened to you
You dont know what to do
Your heart sank out of nowhere
You start to feel depressed
You start to feel useless...
Tears started to form around your eyes for no reasons
Going around the shopping mall
Never in your life you felt so low before
Swallowing the tears back into your heart
You feel this before?
Nope in your life...
But you did just now...
You feel so guilty now.
You also dun kw what exactly happened.
Is it true that when one get older,
one get more problems?
True...
When once you start to think about
The future....
The financial...
The freedom...
What you want to be in future...
So many...
So many...
Is it wrong to think so much?
It needs two hands to get a clap.
It needs two hearts to form love.
But now you are asking yourself why
you're feeling so lost...
You believe one of the main cause...
Army...
2 years...
A must for all guys in sg...
But it ruin your life...
plan for future...
love life...
family...
mindset...
health...
financial...
The mental torturing environment...
No... you facing a different army life...
from many of the other guys...
Since the day you got out of training...
your life changed...
Doctor couldnt diagnose what happened to you
If theres nothing wrong to your heart
Why are you always getting
sudden attack out of nowhere.
You will feel breathless..
During the period of out of training,
you injured my back due to the heavy loads,
you need to carry.
Its getting worse.
Bearing with pain everyday...
Hindering your mood everynow and then
Get lethargic easiy.
From a changed optimistic guy
and now changed back to a
pessimistic guy who is holding a
white flag, waving to all the things
surrounding him.
you believe the only moment
you feel the real happiness
is when you were with your zhu
during the stay at sentosa
yesterday.
The only moments you have no stress
No problems...
But just now...
You felt the world load is over your back..
Perhaps no one actually noticed the tears
But its better.
Suddenly you felt alright when you are home
But the load is still in your heart
You suddenly felt that the longer you type
you lost of what to say.
Perhaps you dont even know what u want to convey
Perhaps you are really lost
Can anyone actually help you?
you really dont know...
You have no controls of anything in your life now
You can only pass day after day
Thinking about the plans you have now for future.
You can really only think cos
theres no possible actions you can do for now
or maybe forever...
A song can really describe your helplessness.
Wu neng wei li...
You're glad that actually theres someone
stay true to your heart.
But at the same time,
you kept thinking why you and her are together
Fate?
True...
U believe.
On the other hand, you know you do not
have the ability to give her what she wants
Whenever you heard of her dreams,
you can do nothing but can only blame one thing
yourself.
You suddenly realised that you really dont know
how to continue this post.
You have to stop with an open ended post...
Cos you really dont know what had happened to you
You dont wish to burden anyone.
Cos if u dont even know what happen to u
Who will?