Yes, after 14 days of confinement in BMTC, i finally really feel the taste of freedom for real. of cos i got a taste of slight freedom during the book out day for my graduation day la. whatever it is, i guess the last two posts of anger and confusion had mark to an end.

I guess after talking to the orientation officer, i feel damn better after getting the whole picture right. Though my goals and dreams might like defered for 2 years becos of u know what. So, i have no choice but delay everything. Trying to be optimistic because "their" lifestyle just make me sick thats all.

At the same time, i always remind myself to be cool headed at all times, and dont fall into the trap of anger and demoralising mood and become 1 of them. Cos most of us i believe, will feel demoralised after being reprimanded by ppl's bad comments or whatever shit they can squeeze from their mouth.

I m trying to tell myself that this kind of ppl who always know how to shit from the mouth, they are simply very pathetic.. LOL? whatever i dun care. 2 years, just train myself up to pass the ippt and consistent pass i mean for the 2 years down the road. get into police force straight after that, if not c how it goes, cos 5 years down the road, my life will going to change becos yes, i know a lot of becos, yup, my life will take into the next chapter, which i believe most youngsters like my age dun like to step onto. guess what it is? i wont say it. i believe u guys should know whats that. :D