Seriously speaking... Im in a whirl now... Suddenly when i went in army, my dreams and goals suddenly all went wrong and went messed up. My whole mind is all blurred. I dont know what i really want now. Thinking abt signing on as police and my parents kept asked me to think through deeply.

I really dont know. Its really confusing now. Cos i really hate army life. And its just simply make me think that freedom is actually gone. Yes its normal everyone said that. But do i really have to face this even in police force? Ever since young, everyone have dreams and goals.

Since young, yes, my kindergarten teacher ask us to draw what we wana be in future. Yes, i drawn a policeman. Why i still cant forget that i actually draw a policeman? Do i really want to be 1? Or nw i just being escaping the reality to be in SAF and sign on singapore police force?

But why? I dont know why im feeling this way now. But i guess i will be alright ba. Going to call the SAF counselling hotline to clarify everything. nitez guys.