U guys tell me. What is going to take to have a family loving and warm and quarrel free? Perhaps its near impossible.

Being the eldest among the siblings. I have the responsibilty to do something different. I have to show a good example. But why just my parents dont understand? Why my sis just cant be more initiative? Why my brother always kip problems to himself? and why am i feeling so stress over all this?

Imagine. I have to hear my parents calling and calling and calling my sis when my sis never return home early. Nagged and nagged and nagged and nagged over her, getting themselves pissed off and affect their health. AND HERE I AM... ALL I CAN DO IS TO LISTEN??? NO!!

SO i try to talk senses to my sis... ask her to be more initiative to call back when she will be late for home. But why she just cant do this simple thing to make my parents life easier? SHE SIMPLY DONT LISTEN. SO THIS IS MY FAULT? She give me black face, thinking im always siding my parents. FINE!

I went to tell my parents to be less strict wif her since shes 18 already. Guess what my parents say? "HANA HANA. U ARE ALWAYS SIDING HER. Dun NID COME BACK, BETTER RGT?"

YES MY FAULT. SO WHAT SHOULD I DO? ITS NOT PLEASANT TO REACH HOME EVERYDAY AFTER WORK TO SEE MY PARENTS HAVING A BLACK FACE BECOS OF MY SIS LATE ARRIVAL TO HOME!!! MY sis have a bf who smoke and not having a stable job. YES, HERE GOES MY MUM AGAIN. ASKING ME ABOUT HER BF. ASK ME WHY HE GOT SMOKE ALL THIS.

MAJIAM I KNOW? I TALK SENSES TO MY SIS BF, TELLING HIM TO BE MORE INITIATIVE. HE IS 2 YEARS OLDER THAN ME. CANT HE THINK? SINCE HE KNOW MY PARENTS DONT HAVE GOOD IMPRESSION OF HIM? IS IT SO DIFFICULT TO CHANGE?

GUESS WHAT HE TOLD ME? "IM JUST ME, ME IS ME. IN THE END IS TING STAYING WIF ME AND NOT YOUR PARENTS. I KNOW I WONT MAKE HER SUFFER. IF YOUR PARENTS ARE NOT HAPPI, I ALSO LAN LAN LOR. WHAT CAN I DO? THE MOST ASK YOUR SIS TO BREAK WIF ME LOR."

YOU GUYS TELL ME. I CANT BELIEVE THESE WORDS COME OUT FROM A 24 YEARS OLD GUY. FINE. He is not wrong by saying that in his point of view. Anyway, different ppl got different thinking. I DONT HAVE RIGHTS TO CHANGE THE WAY THEY THINK. YES IM ALWAYS GIVING MYSELF STRESS. IS THAT WRONG BEING FILLIAL? MY PARENTS CANT SEE IT. IS IT WRONG TO SHOW CONCERN TO MY SIS TO TALK SENSE TO HER? mY SIS CANT SEE IT. iS IT WRONG TO TALK SENSE TO MY SIS BF TO JUST MAKE HIM MORE STABLED MINDED? HE CANT GET MY IDEA.

MAYBE ARMY CAME IN THE RIGHT TIME, I DONT NEED TO CARE ABOUT ALL THIS ANYMORE THIS COMING TWO YEARS. BUT AM I AVOIDING ALL THIS PROBLEMS AND LET IT STAYS? i DONT WANT TO SEE MY SIS BREAK UP WIF HIM. i DONT WANT MY PARENTS GET ANNOYED AGAIN WIF MY SIS BECOS OF HER AND HER BF. AND GET THEIR RELATIONSHIP GETTING WORSE AND WORSE. AND THE TRUST LINING GET THINNER AND THINNER.

PERHAPS MY OTHER SIDE OF MY MIND TOLD ME TO STOP INTERFFERING AND CARE ABOUT ALL THIS ANYMORE WHICH SOUNDS SO TRUE. BUT HOW ON EARTH CAN I JUST LIVE IN THIS HOME PRETENDING NOTHING HAD HAPPENED? I DONT KNOW. I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO.

a LOT OF MY FRIENDS ASK ME WHY I TAKE UP THIS LONG HOURS AND TIRING JOB. MAINLY IS TO STOP HEARING MY PARENTS YAKKING AWAY TO ME ABOUT MY SIS AND JUST STOP CARING ABOUT THEIR PROBLEMS ANYMORE. YES IM RUNNING AWAY FROM FACTS. BUT IM ALREADY VERY TIRED. I HAVE DONE WHAT I COULD HAVE DONE. I TRIED ALL I CAN. TO SEE ALL MY EFFORTS WASTED. FINE. IM NTHING TO SAY.

TO THE SPECIALLY UNIQUELY BLENDED YOU:

IM LUCKY TO FIND YOU IN THIS MOMENT OF TIME. YOUR PATIENCE AND CARE TURN MY LIFE TOWARDS ANOTHER DIRECTION. i MIGHT BE TIRED BUT WHENEVER IM WITH YOU, MY HEART PUMPS FROM THE ENERGY FROM YOURS. i JUST WANT TO SPEND THE TIME WITH YOU NOW WHENEVER I CAN, EVEN MY HOURS OF SLEEP, JUST TO FETCH YOU FROM WORK, JUST TO SEND TO WORK, JUST TO BE WITH YOU AND MY MIND WILL BE FREE FROM PROBLEMS. I JUST WANT TO CHERISH EVERY MOMENTS NOW BEFORE I GO IN. I KNOW YOU WILL WAIT FOR ME. I KNOW... 59 DAYS COUNTING DOWN...