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❥Wednesday, February 22, 2006,2/22/2006 11:34:00 PM
❥A Brand New Day Is Always A Brand New Start



How are feeling today?

Same, in fact a bit better. I guess.. Now prepare to go off work. The whole day had been doing power point and screen shots. Quite tired coz never sleeps well.

How you going to spend your night?

I will be going for driving lessons later. After that I will update this post into my blog. After that I also dont know what to do. Maybe play my keyboard, or touch my PS2 or Maplestory. But I guess not ba. I dont want to waste time on those at the mean time and feel empty and terrible later. Maybe call up some good souls out there. Not sure la.

You know your own problems. Why you dont want change for the better?

For the time being I dont know how. What I want is impossible to realise in such a short time. All I can do is to wait. I know I dont dare to face it. Im avoiding all the problems im facing. I used to be so optimistic for a while. But everything is temporary.

You know you used to be optimistic. Why arent you now?

I dont know what make me changed so suddenly. No one would wish to be in this state of mind. Its terrible. Its very lonely at night. I lost of directions of where to go. I dont know what to do. I only know whatever things I do now, its very pointless and meaningless.

You can choose to be happy if you want to.

I know. I can ask friends out. For the period of time, Im so relax. But when I got home, Im think back. Why do I waste so much time playing and I got nothing out of it? I feel so empty automatically.

Well, as you said, you feel empty while playing and enjoying now. How you actually feel when you did nothing? Isnt it worse?

Yes. Im asking myself this question every now and then. Yes its worst. But as I said, even I did nothing, even I do something. Its all meaningless. I cant find the point of doing it without an ultimate aim.

Why not let go off your mind and your ultimate aim of having thinking of a starting a family and focus on other things?

Focus on what? Studies? Work? Army? What? All this? Whats all this got to do with my real future? I know its impossible to find a partner out of nowhere. I need a fix direction to lead me to the ultimate aim. I dont want to wander around the maze and faced unnesssary problems.

This life isnt it? You bound to face problems and setbacks. Why take it so hard?

I dont know, maybe I dont know how to relax my mind and my contaminated desires are always controlling me more than I controlling them. I guess I shall end here. I got to knock off le.
Back at home
Yes, im back home now munching away all my new year snacks. I skipped dinner again. No appetite. Was just wander around ang mo kio before my driving lessons. haix.. walking around like a zombie. now have to do some reflect again
Feeling better?

YA i hope so. Quite emotionless now.


Okay. thats good. hows driving?

As usual no safety procedure. Too fast. haix...


Ok... i cannot continue to reflect because im too tired. Anyway want to thank jieqi for chatting with me till nearly 3am yesterday. Cant really find such friend nowadays.







❥If you do not know where you are going, every road will get you nowhere


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MySpace Music Playlist at MixPod.com

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Gathering Wedding songs playlist


1)Tonight I celebrate my love for you - Peabo Bryson ***
2)Always - Alantic Starr ***
3)I do Cherish you - 98 degrees ***
4)From this moment on- Shain Twain (dont know how to spell) ***
5)So Beautiful - Chris De Burgh ***
6)Forever in love - A1 ***
7)Forver in love - Kenny G ***
8)The Moment - Kenny G ***
9)Faithfully- Journey
10)My Valentine- Martina McBride ***
11)Power of Love- Celine Dion
12)I Cross My Heart- George Strait
13)That's the way it is - Celine Dion (Recommended From Hon wei, thx)
14)On this Day - David Pomeranz ***
15)Born for you - David Pomeranz ***
16)Till death do us apart - White Lion
17)Now and Forever - Richard Marx
18)From here to Eternity - Michael Peterson
19)Continuing..Keep the list going...

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