Dont feel like writing actualli. But i drag my braincells back into my brain and write. YES GOOD NEWS first... Man U Outclassed Wigan again. With a same scoreline they last met 4 nil in the final of carling cup. Yes Rooney sensation again. bagging two goals. Ronaldo one and Saha one.



Yes I have to go Emo again. Yes. Looking around friendster to see how much ppl had changed ever since secondary sch. Here i am standing at the same old spot, not inching a bit any better. Seeing friends get attached.. seeing friends get married. Here i am have nothing in life. Have no kinds of responsible. Always feeling empty. I know all my weaknesses. I m not afraid to say out here. I have no courage to face my fears and dreams. I Dont dare to face my weaknesses. I chose to look things in another way which also means avoiding in a positive manner, leaving those stranded issues and problems behind in my mind, leaving a scar without solving it.



This is the real me. Perhaps its not very bright to say it here to everyone who is reading it. Why not? This is me. Why must i act as though im a perfect guy? God is right to make me single now or maybe forever despite i having a good intention and devoted heart to any who is possible.



He dont want me to hurt any girls. Yes he is right. I will. Im just a devil. Im a sinister. Every gals nightmare. Every gals will despise me. Every gals will think im a monster. Yes monster deserved to be punish.



Why? Just strike me with lightning when rain to end me. Just dont let anyone worry about me. I bet no 1 will. Who am i? Im nothing. Im just a human who live and die in this world. I wont make any impact to this world. So why do i live?



A guy try his best but failed. Try to be optimistic but failed. Try to be fillial but not appreciated.
Try to look for real responsibilities in life.



I dont know what will happened to me tomorrow. Always wish something simple will come tomorrow. But i guess tomorrow will be a hard day for me. The head of department want me to accomplished something which i have no knowledge to solve and i have no1 to approach. Good luck Phil Victor.



Please help me tell my parents that i love them a lot. Because im afraid that one day im not able to tell them so.