❥Monday, January 23, 2006,1/23/2006 11:19:00 PM
❥A Brand New Day Is Always A Brand New Start
(suppose to post last Friday)
Have you actually thought about it? You try to explain certain things everyday. It's a reason or an excuse?
You might actually think its a reason that you really want to convey from your heart. However, some will think its an excuse just to cover the ugly marks you actually did.
Well of course, some "reasons" you gave at times, might be excuses obviously. You may call it a bad reason, oh well; I believe I dont know how to continue to talk about this topic. Maybe its too cold over here and I cant think. So some will actually think this is an excuse right, somebody out there who will always go against me like Jieqi and Pearlin. Why only the two of them? Simply I guess they are my loyal readers or scanners?
I just read one of my friend's friend's blog. I saw 1 very amusing post which I can't stop laughing when I was reminded of that. Ya, I am laughing now while I'm typing. Okay, I try to recall what she said,
"This is what happened when you are surfing the net for too long."
(Two images of stingrays)
"It's quite surprising to find a website that are actually related to my friend"
"Xu Jieqi = Stingray"
It goes something like this. LOL. Especially the last sentence which makes me wanted to laugh more. Sorry Jieqi... I just find it amusing. But I don't agree with her actually that you look like a stingray. I'm just amused by the way how she phrased her ideas.
Okay credit to Kutu, though I don't know her. **
Okay I guess I shall write what I did just now.
1.27pm, Chulia Street
OCBC Centre...
Here I am writing a senseless post; simply I just got bored out of the work Im doing. Its so cold here although Im wearing like two layers of clothes? I believe this is also why I am sick. PARTLY. I dont like to sleep early, I deserved it. LOL. Its like I have been sick since the Wednesday before last week's? It gets better and worsens like the shares in the stock market. Well, having seen doctor already, it isnt getting any better. Dont ask me to see doctor again. Its just wasting of unnecessary money. Like what my dad always said, "Sleep early and drink lots of water."
We know all this. Its just that we always find excuses to avoid doing it. "I cant sleep"
"Im busy" "Im not tired". Its all excuses. Sleeping is a form of beauty. Thats how they come out with sleeping beauty. Nonsensical logic by me. Time to do work. Its a time where all your blood flow into your stomach, your eyelids seems so heavy and your mind clogged with the word "Bed".
4.11pm, Chulia Street
OCBC Centre...
Okay, Im back for more lobsters. A lot of "huhs" around now. Clever people will know what I mean. Having completed my tasks given 1 working day earlier, now have the time to slack.
Deadline is Monday though. Blame on the efficiency I possess.
Oh I dont know what to say suddenly. Listening to music and suddenly "eh what am I suppose to say." Short termed memory is one my strength too. Should have add to the list on that earlier post.
Okay. Great, Its just 4.20pm, 2 hours and 10 minutes more to weekends. Holy gracious god, I had spent $837.74 since 27th of Dec. Its not even 1 month. I guess these 24 days are quite happening for a no life guy like me. I collect my contact lens, I bought new ear piece, I bought 2 new shoes, I bought health supplements for granny, I consult doctor for an unreasonable price of 31 bucks, and I bought a new keyboard for 320 bucks which is the major spending of the month. Hope I dont need to spend any major spending anymore.
New Year coming, meaning? Extra incomes, from red packets and GAMBLING! I'm not a gambler. I only do this once a year. ONCE A YEAR! Of course "lose money" never appear in my mind. It should appear in my uncles and aunties' minds. Im not greedy. Give me like say, $150 intake? Not much right? Last year was $178, if I remember correctly. Statistics had shown my intakes increases every year. Hope this year wont be any exceptions.
No choice, I need money to survive. Great 5pm. gonna find tasks from them.
Rejection
How do you feel when the word "Rejection" stamp on your face one day? Is it a good thing or a bad thing? Be it on work, family matters, schooling, relationship matters, friendship... etc. You will normally feel terrible.
Lets say some heavy rejections, your boss rejected your idea in a major project and you lost to your closest rival at work. Your parents rejected your dreams. You cant get into the university that you longed to get into. The one you love, just reject you the tenth times.
The word "Rejection" smacked on your face. How deep its going to impact you? Some who are more optimistic will get over it fast. Some will just moaned over it for a long period of time and maybe carry the bad memoirs in him/her forever. When they cant face it, they avoided it. They do not have the courage.
The only to conquer it is to FACE it and FIGHT it! Say is always easier than to be done. For me, I believed I hate it when it was to smack on my face. Its really demoralising because, I never thought of the word "failure" when I wanted to do a task. I only think of the good thing. For work, I faced rejection coz my supervisor said the task cannot be done this way. I dont like the way she do things. I have my own way. It's a hassle to do her way. So I dont like it. The way I did is not wrong and its simpler and easier, of course error free. She just don't accept difference and clever ways. What can I say more?
For family matters, my parents are more conservative minded. So I was so called grow up in a conservative background. Im influence by them too. But I changed as the times goes by. They are always rejecting my ideas of doing things. Maybe they are right but I dont like to be over controlled now. I always admired Freedom but too much freedom led to loneliness too. However, Im glad to be brought up this way, thats why I never go astray.
For Schooling, damn, how should I put it? First of all, Im in the wrong course from the very start, secondly, Im in the wrong class. Nothing goes well. Im believe Im lucky enough to find 3 very good buddies in that class. I shall name them here, Ann Aik, Renxi and Gary. I always admired other class who are so united. But my class is simply "pathetic". I dont wish to define it. No point.
So where is the word "rejection" appeared in that picture? I got rejected into a business course. I got rejected by my parents from getting into a design course at the start. I believe they are right. My family cannot afford me to get me into a design school.
Lastly, I got rejected to make good and trustworthy friends with most of the classmates in that class because of 1 guy. I still respect him because he is still a classmate of mine after all. Thats fate. Imagine a class outing cancelled because he did not go. Why he did not go? Cos Im going. Simply childish? Or he just doesnt dare to face me? He had such a big reputation in that class that the class wont go just because he never go. What am I? Im nothing in that class. This coming Thursday got an outing and I never got informed, until one of my buddy told me. So what is this? I dont wish to comment, you readers just judge. I believed those trustworthy friends I have who read my blog will know me better than those assholes out there think with their asses rather than their brains.
Relationship matters... Well, this always happened to me so its kind of a routine. There is one song goes like, "I knew I love you, before I met you." For me I guess its, "I knew you reject me before you met me." Take it hard at times simply I'm just too devoted when Im blind.
Why blind? Love is blind. Whenever Im stuck with one gal, I cant see the others until the day I gave up, I believe. Once committed, I never stop. Thats me. But why gals just cant see. So sad right. Just not meant to be. Perhaps Singaporean girls are too... I always found this phrase too good to be true, "Good guys always cant be spotted. Bad guys are always spotted. So those gals get hurt by bad guys are deserved right?" Well just a stupid joke. Im not that bad, I will just curse those guys who are out to toyed gals heart.
I had seen many incredible guys before in my life, recently one will be CW. I can say he is a model example of extinct guys. I cant find anyone more devoted than him.
Rejection, a decision which is so cruel to decide, yet so hurtful to decide.
Decisions are to make everyday.
No decisions are right or wrong.
Face your rejection with pride
Always reject with no regrets
Accept it with respect
This is your life.
Treasure it.