❥Thursday, October 27, 2005,10/27/2005 11:52:00 PM
❥A Brand New Day Is Always A Brand New Start
An Emotional confession
Yes. Im.... a emotional guy. Its just like, a handicapped child named ken whom i know, born without legs... He tried to be friendly with those kids of his same age. He wanted to play with them. The kids shouted, "Go away! you are leg-less, you cant play with us."
Ken hurts deeply inside.... he is born handicapped. Its not that he wants it. He does not have a choice.
My friend said, She herself is emotional too like me.... but she say she loves the emotional her. Whats wrong with her? Theres nthn wrong in her. she faced problems wif her classmates too. but she bravely faced it. She is helpful, kind, having a thoughts for friends.... Thats what emotional ppl can do. They have a deeply thoughts for friends.... love ones... etc, People just dun understand....
Sometimes, people dun understand how we realli feel inside. I just feel i m borned wif a very soft heart. I cannot engaged with a face to face arguement with anyone, i will either shut up, walk away or give in.... I cannot do stuff that requires hard emotions, i might cry. Yes.... Ah gua.... watever u feel like to say. I do cried easily. Is this wat i want? YEs im a guy. Is there any guidelines brought from the past that a guy cannot shed tears?
Anyway... i dun cry in front of ppl like i do in the past, simply bcos the taps inside my eye lids are jammed with eye shits... maybe call a plumber or watever job is that... 1 day to clear all stuff... so my eyes dosen look so small like wat it is now... shut la phil.... always crap to urself... not funnie....
Maybe an emotional guy is hard to find a gf. Cos gals cannot tahan a gal i mean guy... hu is softer than them. But wat can i do. Trying to act hard meh? maybe put some cement on my heart to make it hard ba... i too soft at times and its hard to express myself. Im not good in expressing myself face to face at times... ppl misunderstand... ppl think otherwise... i can say i dun give a damn in the previous post... is all act hard.... its not true... i always think abt how others think abt me.... cos i hate ppl to misunderstand me... blar blar blar... but if it comes to certain extend.... i dun give a wink if its within my reach... let em think wat they like. theres no chances of resolving it aniway.
AS i write on... i come to a point where i dun know wat im goin to say next. So please dun Pai chi emotional ppl. maybe we r scary..... but we do haf a soft heart for u guys to understand. Thanks "she" for chatting wif me until u sleep... haha.... i feel much better... u know hu u r... thx reali.... yes tomorrow friday and its a weekend mood again. Should i ask..... er hmm... shall wait and c.... thats all folks.....