❥Thursday, August 04, 2005,8/04/2005 01:04:00 AM
❥A Brand New Day Is Always A Brand New Start
My life had come to a no-life period
So long, never come and visit my wife... guess shes kinda sian to see me here again. cos im goin to rant again. YEAR 2005!! A bleak year for me. Ever since, new year, my luck abt everything drops. dun say abt luck.... just simply everything dosen goes well.. trying hard for sumthing, in the end a special surprise always awaits me.
the surprise is reali a "surprise".. Y i become like this. sian....
I said that i nid to break and went to beach. i realli barely haf the time. but i still went to East Coast.. haha.... wif my shadow.. friends all bo eng 1... all rushing for projects, common tests... onli me... and my shadow pei me thru the nite... That nite so scary.. hard to see humans around.... its was still quite erm, contaminated wif ppl ard 12plus midnight... but slowly the ppl all vanished....
den find myself a place and lie down and see the stars... suddenly tot of ou de yang's "man tian xin"... but its not man tian xin... just a few... no moon leh.... maybe i blind or sumthing...
suddenly a couple wok by and sit not very close wif me.. wah lan... scary leh.. r they humans a not.. of cos.. i dun wan to b light bulb and scared that if they r not humans... den i go another spot and sit down... haha.. close shave... thou i can see this kinds of "things"... but i still scared.. LOL... 7th month coming.. zipped.....
heng no rain until morning... i know east coast cant see sunrise 1.. i still go ther... but nvm la... can breathe the fresh wind of the morning skies... main purpose is to hear the waves. haix.... den after that go out to sch to do project... never get a wink to sleep. after project go home flat to my bed.
Sunday is an emotion day for my family, especially my grandpa. His cousin flew to SG from China. Its about years they never met. For me its been 19 years i never met him liao.. got wat i mean? means i nv see him b4.. ok... so a lot of relatives r, those weekly seen relatives, yearly seen relatives all gathered at my grandpa home.
got this rich relative of mine.. i dun reali like them. Simply they r rich and proud. of cos... i nv seen them for 2 years.. guess wat they say abt me? "Eh... so long never see you, u still look so young, like nv grow up" in chinese... "say i zhang bu da" wah... i give her face den i smile to her onli... if not i will replied her "ya lo, i poor ma... not like sm1 hu r rich everyday eat abalone and get so fat"
hahaha... bad hor me... but of cos i nv say la... aniway shes my ZHANG BEI ma... so give her face lo... Oh YA! Still say i got baby face.... kns... baby their head la.. maybe i wear specs tat day ba... aiya hu cares... rich ppl's eyes full of eyes shit 1... hu cares abt them. soon after around 35 ppl gathers at my grandfather's home liao... waiting for the VIP to reach. i stay at the upper living room. the lower living room consist of all adults ma. dun wan to hear their lament... den me and my sis go upstairs watch ENCORE superstars... see the female 1.. back to it, soon they arrived.. my uncles and i all gathered at the gate welcoming him... i shook hands wif him and greeted him. and siam liao... haha.... clever... arbo r.. later dun kw how to answer his question.
den later got took pics... wah take 1 pic nid prepare 15 mins... all the kids la... buay zi dong.. ask them faster. all dun kw y so slow.. too bad cannot post the pic here, wait for my relative to print the pics out... think must wait for months liao... heng onli 1/3 of my relatives appeared. if 100% appeared.. haha... i dun kw how they going to take the pic. Also dun kw y i got such big family.. if reali go count... can reali reach 90 plus heads to 100 heads, and its onli my father side. if include my mum side... OMG... dun wana think abt it... next time mus give brith to more children.. bo chinese new year will lu gi 1... LOL...
when my grandpa's cousin about to leave, my grandpa and him wok to my grandpa's home carpark. i was somewhere near the gate there, they was toking very emotionally wif each other.
my grandpa cried.. a lot of my relatives also cried. i feel something in my heart too. just that ya...
its the first time i seen my grandpa cried. he cried still so man... haix... i can understand their feelings la... in their heart, they dun kw when they will c each other again. one in SG, one in China... very emotional day indeed. He also tok to me ask me and my family go to China and visit them when possible.. but i guess its impossible... where got the money to go sia... never been a plane b4...
haha... nvm.. leave my virgin plane ride to my future wife.... LAME....
Still got a lot more to write... dun know y suddenly feel so hollow... just now lying on my bed and see the stars on my ceiling. start counting... onli 15 stars.... and 1 cresent.... -_-... u know.. those glow in the dark 1... was hugging my darling bolster and roll side to side... mind kip thinking abt sumthing.. and i dun kw wats the sumthing abt... haha... wah 2am liao... so fast....
actualli plan to write some more de... but late liao... 2ml 9am practical.... ZzZ
Anyone wants to go watch fireworks this coming 9th of Auguest At esplanade?? Phil dates anyone now... cos the person he wants to date sure going wif other 1... hey hey not treating U as a substitute wor... I just nid someone to pei me tats all...
LOnely.... im still so Lonely... theres nobody for my own.....OWWWWWNNWWNNNN!!!!!...........
phil is getting crazy!!!