❥Friday, July 22, 2005,7/22/2005 09:34:00 AM
❥A Brand New Day Is Always A Brand New Start
One week term break soon........
This coming week break is just more stress days for me... 1 week for me to clear the KOBS project... Still dont know how to face and handle it... Totally lost to programming this sem.. My mind just cant start the engine on Java... the prac test is going to buang for sure.... first time i m so embarrassed doing test... when i see the paper... my whole mind turn blank... yes blank... even teacher have to come and help me..
i dun kw what is happening to me... Y my acdemic life is like the shares descending on tv? Where is the focus point? must find 1 magnifying glass and plant into my brain...
Its been a long long time i ever been to beach since.... dun kw this 1 week break got time to go not... Dun care... must go... shout the hell of my life... East Coast maybe... thou thers a place which i saw sumthing that i shdnt see... i guess its a friendly 1... so its ok.... the waves there, are more soothing...
I found out i had this weird feeling for this particular gal... for abt 1 month le ba... Dont know y everytime c her pic, i got this urge to ask her out... I never see her face to face b4.. i never really know her... but... well... just like my poly mate.... the gal he is interested haf a bf... but at least hes better, cos he can see her once and twice at sch... but me leh... can only see her pic and chat wif her online for worst come to worst once per week.....
Theres many times i sign in msn for the whole day just hope and anticipate she will log in... I know this sounds rather crazy... but i reali dun kw y....
den suddenly J entered my life and i faced a major impact again.. but its clearly show, that its all past.. cos shes going to australia soon for treatment.. I guess its good for her to go there. After seeing J off to Australia... its time to move on. we made it clear and will be always good good friends... the something in my heart that left unattended had left.... best of luck to her....
Kind of missing someone in the middle of the nite every now and then... So long never had this kind of feeling at nite. There always people to tell me that one should take every chance and give each other chance whenever possible.. Mayb i m not that brave towards this area anymore. I dun kw whether i haf the courage to ask her out this coming week break. Maybe bcos i dun kw her well, cos i dun kw how she will react and maybe bcos she got bf... i dun wan to interfere ppl relationship.
So many of sayings... one must fight for their happiness.... blar blar blar... but well, i just hope she happy wif her bf can le. Seeing her pic arent that bad rgt? thers somebody dun even haf the pic of their "dream"... think this way, i feel much better....
Rejection is painful.... watch yest show, "tan pan juan jia" that karen was rejected by yang guang... so sad... i almost cry when the moment she ran out of the restaurant.
No1 faults ba.... maybe yang guang should 4get the past and move on... which i already learnt how to handle. thanks to 1 book i read....
10.10 liao, go to flip thru the papers again... 2pm haf Knowledge Management test... i reali bow to this module... totally "chim-nalogy".. Its like back to sec sch studying English... but this 1, the term they use is "WOW"..... " What are they talking abt?" haha.... guess something like tat ba...
Bye~~~~ AND CONCERN!! do tell me hu u r.... dun make me guessing, enuff of stress liao.. haha...