i m feeling soo.... pek chek.... this week is getting so worst.... everything make me sick.... i dun kw wat happen to me and my family.... actualli found out out my sis's bf got smoking 1... den mum kip worrying abt her... den mum always ask me abt her stuff.. as a brother... wat should i do... i reali hate this kind of feelings a lot... personally hate smokers a lot... should say depise... how can i let a smoker control my sister fate and life.....

Maybe this sounds tat i m reali bias towards smokers... this is the fact in my mind. they suks... i haf to say this.... even u r my friend and u smoke... i wil not like it too... and wif this... i go and tell my mum tat my sis' bf got smoke...

she go and ask my sis.... den my sis diam diam... after a few days later... she go and use javscript and lock her blog.... she already suspect me liao lor.... U tell me la.... did i do anithing wrong a not.... i seen her bf pic lor... typical ah beng lor.... after having this bf... she reali change.... i dun kw how to say... i reali reali pek chek liao.... i wish i dun care abt anithing... wash my hands over everything.... but everytime see my parents always nagged at her.... bcos of her actions.. i everyday hear liao also pek chek... u tell me how to not care... den i know my mum is very stress liao... i also dun wan her to worry lor... sometimes i say good things abt sis.. so she wont worry...

now today i realise some1 is telling her stories... abt me... say things abt me.... which i actualli nv say and did in my life... she is either checking on me or thers some1 out ther to making up story and ruin me.... my mum chose to believe tat bloody person.... he or she is an outsider.... and my mum believe them rather than me... make me started an unwanted quarrel...

im so tired... this past week, i keep do stuff to avoid all this... i m reali mentally sicked... later still got ica... nthn seems to get into my mind... Y my mum dun trust me....... im already 20 soon liao lor.... i know wats right and wrong le... cant she feel tat..... some more im a guy.. say wat ask me whether will i find a gf hu smokes.... OMg... wat is this.... gals hu smoke stinks... just by standing beside her can turn me off totally, no matter how pretty or how gd her character is...
possible to find a gal hu smoke to be gf??? NO WAY! pek chek... she still say "anithing can happen lor.. u nv know...."

haix... if i dun even know this kind of things... cannot judge wat i like... wat i dun like.... how can i survive sia... haix... now having a silent war wif her... i dun kw how to say... this feeling is not good... reli xing ku... i dun wan this kind of feeling.... its like being hurted for not trusted by her.
And hurted for ignoring her.. cos i know shes already very stress... argh.

some more still got sumthing left unattended... i reali wish to skin the person alive hu always say things to my mum... i know secondary tat time also got sm1 telling her.. reali du lan... i know my mum care.. at least she should trust me lo... i dun kw la... im just feel i wana shout here... i reali pek chek abt everything liao.. so dear friends if u see me face black like charcoal, i just wana say sorry.... cos i reali pek chek wif everything now...

moodless for everything......