Now sitting in front of the com
Feeling the torture I never ever felt in my life b4
Y must a person do something that he or she dun like to do?
Y must a person struggle like hell to meet deadline for the sake of
10%?
Y AM I HERE?
I dont know why
Y I had to do this?
Responsible ? For Future? For the cert? OR for the USELESS paper to fight for a jobplace?
A guy who learnt to be optimistic
learnt to be stronger
Learnt TO BE POSITIVE IN WATEVER HE DOES
but now
He realised
the every single thing
every little and major incidents, problems, situations.....
He faced b4
had realli totalli destroyed him
From a at least 65% guy to a negative 100% guy
Y am i Living in this kind of environment?
Yes, he is not worst than those who are worse than him
those handicapped, physically, financially disabled.....
but y
y am i feeling this now
Totally gave up everything
Totally Heck care those hu r close wif him
Totally destroyed.......
Its just like totally lost of sense
lost of feeling
numb
Dun know how to do?
Seek for friends help!
Ya, he told himself....
Get unwanted comments from them
Get unwanted tones from them
Mayb this is my misjudgement on em
Mayb....
Y i dun seek for help?
y?
the rejection inside my heart seems
so strong
independent....
Y cant I?
AM i in the COMFORT ZONE for too long?
SO Many Ys.............
And yet i never ever have the ans
Looking around
friends and strangers
Saying stuff totally alien to me
Feeling so neglected
but y?
Cant i join in?
FOR?
nothing.....
It wont do any better....
lying to myself
Mayb this kind of feeling is temporary...
sure?
unknown....
Overcome the phobia is to faced it
It turned out negative
Try to love it
turned out to be more hatred
Tried everything
Tired
Depressed
washed my hands off everything
Exams?
still possible
7 more days to first paper
cool...
started?
mayb later
Reali?
shd be
Mayb i give myself too much stress.
Am i too stupid enough to give myself stress?
Mayb
Mayb i dun kw how to cope
Mayb sumthing in my heart is still draging me behind
stopping me to go forward
excuse?
mayb

Mayb i should take a long long long break from everything
Possible
Never will it gona b happened....